PMDD; my enemy within me.
I feel hot
I feel angry
I feel on edge
I feel sad
I feel mad
I feel depressed
I feel like I am an awful mother and wife
I want to throw something across the room
I want to quit everything
My obligations and commitments…
I want to run away
I love my family
But I want to run away
I need to be somewhere quiet
Somewhere where no one needs me.
I need to be able to come back when I feel better
I need my family to know I love them.
I need my family to know that I am not feeling well
I need my family to know it’s not their fault
I need them to be understanding and forgiving
I don’t need to be treated like I am crazy.
I don’t need to be provoked or reminded of my condition.
I don’t drink, but I always say on my PMDD days, I feel like drinking.
I need awareness.