Can’t sleep

Won’t retreat

No such thing as defeat

Careful now, dear, be mindful of what you eat

Doc says avoid excessive sugar and caffeine

Do they know about the lead weights dragging at my feet?

Struggling through each step

My bones brittle with the small slices of bravado it takes to get through the day.

Shouldn’t there be another way?

Any other way?

ANY OTHER FUCKING WAY?

Bombs bursting in my brain

Neuroses on repeat.

Curdled confidences settle in my belly,

Expelled in foul fumes.

She sharpens her claws

Packs a knockout punch

Blood clouds my eyes

Or are those tears?

Ever present fears pressing on my mind

Rage ravages each and every nerve until I’m blind.

I cower in corners and crevasses

Surely, if I run myself ragged

Drag myself through the seconds,

minutes,

hours,

days,

weeks,

months of hell

I’ll outsmart her once and for all.

Delude myself well and drug myself dainty

Mother,

brother,

son,

sister,

others simply nod silently.

Oh, honey, here’s some tea

Get dressed

Go for a run

Sit out in the sun

Put on a smile

Have some fun

It’s just a little pesky PMS, don’t you see?